Archive for January, 2016

Am I ready?

This is the first time that I have logged into my blog since October of last year. In many ways, I wanted to, needed to log in and write. Yet I had a fear of being here as well.

When I logged in and saw my last two posts, my fear became a reality. Pictures of my parents and family slammed into me. I felt like my laptop became my enemy…reminding me of so many things that I am doing my best to forget.

I thought I could now handle things in my mind. I turned away from pretty much everything. Some friends who reached out to me and I responded with “goodbye.”

Those friends, some of them spread around the world, may read this and feel it is them I am talking about, and they are right.


Perhaps another time I will be ready to be here again. Right now, I am not.


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